Friday evening we found out we will be enjoying more pink in our house. Josiah and Eugene will be extremely outnumbered in July when this baby girl arrives. We are more than thrilled at this news, not that we would have been unhappy with a boy, but I really wanted another girl. We both had strong feelings this was a girl, despite everyone around us telling us it was a boy. We have a lot of “feelings” about this blessing and I’d love to share them.
We both feel like this will be the last baby for us. I can’t say 100% that it will be, because neither of us will be taking permanent actions to stop anything from happening in the future, but we kinda both feel done now. When I was pregnant with Caylee we kept saying “one more”, but then when I got pregnant with Josiah we both knew it wasn’t the last pregnancy for us. This go around I feel a certain peace about calling it quits, I am praying she is a laid back, easy going baby like Lexi was, I’m not sure I can handle another crazy child like Caylee and Josiah. Only God knows I guess.
We had some names picked out for a boy or a girl, even though as I mentioned we both felt it was a girl. My pregnancy has been very similar to my pregnancies with the girls, with the exception of being more in shape since I was a healthy weight and have continued to run and be careful about what I eat. Eugene thought it was a girl, and one Sunday at church he got confirmation from God, as well as a name. It was one of those moments where you’re almost afraid to mention it because you don’t want people to think you’re crazy, but at the same time you are so blown away by hearing something so clearly from God that you just want to tell everyone.
Now to the name… Before I got pregnant with Caylee I had a molar pregnancy, some point either during that pregnancy or shortly after it I was in church when our worship leader was introducing a new song. It’s not so new now, but that was one of the first times they had played it. The song was Hillsong’s “Hosanna“. Lee, the worship leader, was explaining that Hosanna means “save we pray” and that it’s a cry for salvation. At that moment something hit me, I just felt God tell me we would name our daughter Hosanna. At the time I was thinking “ok, that’s cool, but i don’t know about it as a name.”
Fast forward to my pregnancy with Caylee, I share with Eugene about that Sunday and what I felt, because I never could get that feeling out of my heart, but we both knew that the baby girl growing in me was not Hosanna, so we chose Caylee Grace. Years and pregnancies have gone by, but I knew in my heart that Hosanna would come. I think Eugene still thought I was nuts, till a month or two ago when God told him other wise.
Since the beginning of this pregnancy we have both felt there is something special about this baby, not that our other kids are not special and not that each child isn’t a blessing, but there is something about this little girl. I really started searching out the word Hosanna and it’s meaning. I came across this excerpt from a sermon John Piper wrote Palm Sunday 1983, and was just blown away.
Our English word “hosanna” comes from a Greek word “hosanna” which comes from a Hebrew phrase hoshiya na.
And that Hebrew phrase is found one solitary place in the whole Old Testament, Psalm 118:25, where it means, “Save, please!” It is a cry to God for help. Like when somebody pushes out off the diving board before you can swim and you come up hollering: “Help, save me” … “Hoshiya na!”
But something happened to that phrase, hoshiya na. The meaning changed over the years. In the psalm it was immediately followed by the exclamation: “Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!” The cry for help, hoshiya na, was answered almost before it came out of the psalmist’s mouth. And over the centuries the phrase hoshiya na stopped being a cry for help in the ordinary language of the Jews. Instead it became a shout of hope and exultation. It used to mean, “Save, please!” But gradually it came to mean, “Salvation! Salvation! Salvation has come!” It used to be what you would say when you fell off the diving board. But it came to be what you would say when you see the lifeguard coming to save you! It is the bubbling over of a heart that sees hope and joy and salvation on the way and can’t keep it in.
So “Hosanna!” means, “Hooray for salvation! It’s coming! It’s here! Salvation! Salvation!”
And “Hosanna to the Son of David!” means, “The Son of David is our salvation! Hooray for the king! Salvation belongs to the king!”
And “Hosanna in the highest!” means, “Let all the angels in heaven join the song of praise. Salvation! Salvation! Let the highest heaven sing the song!”
So there we have it, our blessing, our declaration that our Savior has come. Hosanna Joy. because after all, Salvation brings Joy.
(Joy by the way, is my sister Karra’s middle name, we used my middle name for Lexi, my sister Bethany’s middle name for Caylee, and Karra’s now for Hosanna)