Where am I???

Caylee is almost 10 months old and I’m still out of whack. I haven’t found my groove yet. The house is always messy, Caylee has yet to get on a schedule no matter how hard we try. After Lexi things just kinda fell right into place. I feel like I’m not doing something right.

I miss my old self. The anal, OC clean freak. Where did I go? maybe I left myself at the hospital or something. Who knows.

We took Caylee to the ENT yesterday and it was decided that she needed tubes. So on the 7th she is getting tubes put in. I’m really hoping that helps with EVERYTHING!

We’ll see.

Did I just say that?

“DON’T EAT THE TABLE!!!”

um.. did that just come out of my mouth?

Yes, yes it did. and I had to say it 3 times in one day…

this is why:

yes, Caylee did that. I thought only dogs chewed on furniture.

doctors appointments

Yesterday we took Lexi to the doctor. It was the first time she’s had to go since her 2 year check up. I think they forgot about her.We go all the time for Caylee and her ears…

Anyway, a few nights ago we were outside and when we came in I noticed Lexi had some bug bites. Nothing unusual, the bugs are vicious out there. two of them looked bigger than normal, I mean her bites always get bigger than the normal person’s mosquito bites, but these two were pretty big.

The next day she complained of them itching so I started putting some cortaid on them to help. I watched as one got bigger and redder or to be proper, “more red”. By Yesterday she was still complaining about it and it was probably 2″ across. it was bright red and she wouldn’t stop saying it hurt.

So in we went.

The doctor looked at it, then asked us what kind of bug spray we used. I said “none… we haven’t been to the store since the last time I was in here and asked what I could use.”

She told me again, then said that her bug bites will probably ALL start getting that big now. She said it normally takes a couple bug seasons before kids get the reactions they will have from then on.

I wish I would have taken a picture of it yesterday, just to show how HUGE it was. She told us to give her benadryl, which apparently worked because today all that is left is the little dot where the bug got her.

Needless to say we went out and bought bug spray. I hate putting chemicals on her, but it will be better than the huge itchy bumps!!

Waiting

Monday night we decided to go for a walk. We walked about 3 miles, and on the way home I started to feel a little weird. When I got home and went to the bathroom I noticed some “spotting” and immediately got freaked out.

I’ve been concerned through this whole pregnancy. There were too many similarities between this pregnancy and the Molar Pregnancy we had between Lexi and Caylee. Lexi was 8 months old when we found out we were pregnant, Caylee was 8 months old when we found out we were pregnant. I was constantly hungry and had no sickness, This time I was hungry nonstop and only had 4 days of sickness. The whole time I was pregnancy I was just thinking in the back of my head “something’s not right”.

So Tuesday I called the doctor. The nurse said spotting was normal, but if I was concerned they would see me right away, they scheduled an appointment for 3:45pm.

We got there and got into the ultrasound room. It was then I started to freak out a little bit, I knew we were going to leave there either seeing a baby and a heart beat, or knowing things had gone wrong.

The midwife came in and started the ultra sound. She informed me there was a baby, but it was not what we should see at 9 weeks along. So either we WAY miscalculated or things were wrong. She searched around for a while but didn’t find a heart beat. She asked me a bit about when we had the positive pregnancy test- it was 4 weeks ago. baby would have been at least 7 weeks. What they saw was more like a 4 week pregnancy.

She got a doctor to recheck and confirm what she saw, and he said the same things.

Through it all I felt peace, I kinda expected to hear that news. It wasn’t the news I wanted to hear, and I didn’t like hearing it, but I was half way prepared.

So now we are waiting. We decided to skip the D&C. Although we got it with the last one, I didn’t feel right about it this time. Partially because last time there was no baby, but I’ve also learned to be a lot more natural and I don’t want to take any chances of what the D&C could do.

We have a big vacation coming up in about 3 weeks, so we decided if in 2 weeks nothing has happened we will probably do something to help speed things up. We want it to be over with and give us some time to heal before we go on vacation and try to have fun.  I really hope it doesn’t take too long to happen,  I just want to get this over with. Apparently my body doesn’t like having babies too close together.

Differences

Caylee and Lexi are so different! I know most kids are different, and Caylee had proven that very early. Lexi was completely laid back and easy, Caylee is high maintenance and well… a bit more of a challenge.

Lexi didn’t start crawling until 12 months, and walking around 19 months. She never paid any attention to electrical outlets, the TV, VCR or DVD player.

Caylee has been crawling for about 2 months now, and has already started pulling up and cruising around furniture. She LOVES to push the buttons on the DVD player and stick her hand in the VCR. All of our outlets have the child proof safety things in them, and I’m going to be buying the covers for outlets that have plugs in them.
Also, despite their size difference, with Lexi being smaller than Caylee at this age, Lexi would eat anything and everything where I have a hard time getting Caylee to eat food.

So there we have it. just a few differences, it’s hard to think that in about 7 months we’ll have another completely different child in the house.

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

My good friend Beth (you might know her as The Natural Mommy) had her baby this morning!!!!

Congratulations Beth, Josh, Olivia and Benjamin!!!!

Please welcome Levi into the world with me!

levi-alexander

He’s so handsome! Beth will be updating her blog later with all the details, go over and tell her congrats!!!

Wedding pictures

Last Saturday was my mother-in-law’s wedding. I was put in charge of making the cake. I must admit, I was STRESSED. I think I called My mom (master of cake making and decorating) about 30 times the last few days before the wedding. Luckily she was understanding and answered all my questions and even gave me a few quick tips on things. THANKS MOM!!

I was icing the cake here, at this point Caylee could not take any more of me not holding her. So she found her place on my hip while I finished working on the cakes.

Lexi found a place in a booster seat at our table. I’m not sure why she wanted in the chair, but she was really cute so we took the picture. :)

The finished product. I had every detail down pat on how I was going to do it except for the belt buckle. I couldn’t find any silver or gold candy, icing or even fondant. I was so mad I had to settle for this sparkly gel stuff, which as you can see, looked TERRIBLE. By the way, all the brown, is tootsie roll.  They work great for cake decorating. (that was my idea!) BTW, it was a western themed wedding, and her color was pink, which is why the cake looks like it does.  The western theme was great for my first wedding cake, I didn’t have to worry about making fancy flowers or anything, or getting the cake completely smooth. Oh and I got to choose the details of the cake, which also helped.  I’m not sure if I’ll tackle another wedding cake.

This was taken prewedding, Lexi wouldn’t smile normal, all she would do is cover her face or make funny faces. So this is what we got!

Caylee was her usual smiley self when the camera came out. (in between chewing on her shoes)

The maid of honor pulling flower girl one and ring barer down the aisle.  The Maid of honor is Eugene’s oldest niece, who did the bride’s hair and makeup- she did a GREAT job!  In the background you can see Eugene giving Lexi last minute instructions on how to drop the flowers.

here she is, doing an amazing job with the flowers.

The guys.

The ladies.

my husband walking his mommy down the aisle. don’t you love the belt buckle? he he. it was required for the wedding- he wanted me to make sure everyone knew that.  Doesn’t the bride look beautiful?  She MADE her dress. it looked like something found in David’s Bridal. it was amazing.

Lexi got all the way up there and realized she still had flowers in her basket, so she went back out on the runner to throw the rest.

The Bride and Groom. Congratulations!!

I’m sick of it!

of the TV that is. it seems like it is ALWAYS on in my house. from 6:30am-6pm it’s Lexi’s shows, then from 6-bedtime it’s whatever Eugene or I feel like watching. The sad thing is there’s really nothing on! Most of the time it is on for Lexi it is just background noise, but I have to admit, she gets more TV than she should. (mostly because I spent too much time on the computer.)

My whole point is something has got to change. I already know it HAS to start with me. Because until I get off my lazy butt and spend more time with Lexi working on things, she’s going to want the tv on. I’ve even toyed with the thought of shutting off internet completely until I have myself under control, but I don’t think I could do that. I need a lock on my internet so I can only get on at certain times, like nap time and after the kids are in bed.

My excuse is that I use the computer as my social life. Talking to my good friend on AIM, or catching up with people on facebook, even reading blogs. It’s sad that our generation has forgotten about things like letters, phones, and even real live visits. (most of my friends and family lives too far away to visit though, which is why the internet is so good [and bad] for me.)

So there you have it. My current thoughts. Which are actually my thoughts quite often. So why haven’t I changed yet?!

Tree houses

I was just flipping through my parent magazine and saw an article on Tree houses. If you knew me growing up at all, you know that a lot of my time was spent in tree houses. I would often come home from school, climb up with my backpack and finish my homework. My Tree house was my safe place, it was my second bedroom. I LOVED my tree house.

This article was a list of rules to follow when building a tree house.

  1. Build the house so it’s no more than 10 feet off the ground.
  2. Cover a zone 3-4 feet wide around each side of the tree house with at least nine inches of mulch. avoid using wood chops, gravel or sand which don’t offer enough cushioning.
  3. Build on branches that are at least 8″ thick. Be sure they’re free of fungus or damaged bark, which could be a sign that they’re weak.
  4. Never fasten any ropes or chains (even rope ladders) to the structure- they’re a strangulation hazard.
  5. Don’t allow kids under age 6 to play in a tree house unless they’re with an adult.
  6. If your tree house sits higher than four feet, attach solid walls (not guardrails) all around the edge of the platform, and make sure they’re at least 38″ tall.

I wish I had a picture of my two tree houses. (One from my house in PA, and one from my house in Maine.)

I’m pretty sure they broke EVERY rule listed. well, except the  kids under age 6 rule. I was over 6.  I never had solid walls on my tree houses, and they were WAY HIGHER than 10 feet. or at least they seemed that way to me. and mulch under it?! yah right. Why ruin the nice grass, or sticks, trees and shrubs. he he.

My tree house in Maine was my favorite,  it was bigger than my one in PA. I was also older, so I’d spend a lot of time “fixing” it up. I wanted it to be completely enclosed, so I could sleep up there. That never happened.

As I was reading the rules I just sat here laughing. The whole point of the article was that every year 2,700 kids visit the ER for injuries related to tree houses. they want to keep kids safe. But how many kids visit the ER for bike accidents? or sledding? Kids are kids, they will get hurt.   (Although I never got hurt from my tree house.) I know each day more laws are passed to protect kids, I promise, kids now days aren’t doing anything more dangerous than we did when we were young. So why all the rules?  Are kids getting stupider? Parents getting lazier?

My personal opinion is that parents are getting lazier. I know as a parent, it is a lot easier to sit here, typing a blog, or reading a magazine than watch my kids closely. Not that I don’t watch them, but I am distracted.  Although, with the increase in amount of time spend watching tv and playing video games, kids could be not quite as smart… or at least not as used to playing outside.

What do you think has lead to the increase in “rules” and “laws”?  is it laziness? stupidity? or maybe increase in knowledge of doctors and scientists?

we interupt this bloggy break…

Ok, I do not know why I have failed to blog. It’s been a while and I apologize.

This past weekend was my Mother in law’s wedding, and as soon as I upload pictures I’ll post them on here. It was a very pretty wedding.

Other than that, not too much has been going on, so there really has been NO reason for me to not blog. I guess the fact that nothing has gone on is the reason I haven’t blogged- nothing to blog about!

Yesterday we had a fun morning out with some friends from Church. The women and kids got together for a pool play date. Aside from the girls and I being a bit pink, it was a blast. Caylee loves the water, and so does Lexi. We need to get Lexi some sort of vest or something so she can “swim” on her own. I didn’t bring the camera, so there are no pictures of that. (I’d rather not have pictures of me in my bathing suit.)

I’m going to try to get back into blogging mode here soon. Maybe the summer will give me stuff to blog about!!